Yesterday 9/11/2011

10 years ago yesterday I was in Boise Idaho. I had a roommate in the Air Force, a best friend in the Army, a friend in the Marines, and a pen pal in the Navy.  I woke up that morning with the TV still on and I thought I was watching a movie at first but then realized I was watching the Today show. I stood there in shock for a moment but quickly got dressed and rushed into work. I asked my co-workers if they knew what was going on , no one knew what I was talking about so I asked them to turn on the little TV we had in the warehouse office. The rest of the day we watched that little TV in horror over what unfolded. My four friends in the Military left not to long after that, all but one made it home.

The Final Countdown

OK we are at 10 days before I fly out of Utah and land in New York, well minus a layover in Georgia. I'm excited, happy, nervous, scared, little bit sad, and slight panic all rolled into one. Tim assures me that everything will go as planned and that we will be just fine. I am glad that my best friend and my sister are traveling with me to help me settle in, that helps big time.

My Hooters!!!

Sorry the picture is kind of blurry and they are not sanded yet so the edges look a little rough but these are my two very cute little owls I did.  Got the  cut wood shapes  from The Wood connection here in Salt Lake City. I really want to go back and get the x-large, large, and medium owls too.  I've been obsessed with owls since last year when I saw in a Halloween magazine a party decorated with vintage owls. 

It's September!

The month is finally here and soon I will be living in upstate New York with my fiance. Can't wait for him to be home from deployment to where I know he is safe and we get to go on adventures together. Some adventures I'm looking forward to are;  apple and pumpkin picking at a local farm, visiting Boldt Castle at 1000 Islands, and our road trip to Utah (Salem Mass, Edgar Allan Poe's Grave, Gettysburg, and Tombstone). But most of all I just can't wait to be with Tim.

 

My best friend/sister  Roxanne lost her father this last week. My heart goes out to her, I've lost people who were very close but don't know what I would do if I lost my parent. I'm not very good with what to say or how to act  other than just trying to let her know I'm thinking of her and I'm here if she needs anything.

 

KEVIN OLSON

Kevin T. Olson 1954 ~ 2011 Kevin passed away peacefully on August 10th 2011. Kevin was born on June 12, 1954 to Tom and Dixie Olson in Salt Lake City, UT. He graduated from Granite High School and the University of Utah. He served a mission in Alaska where he met his wife Debbie. Kevin had a deep love for his family and friends. He is survived by his mother, Dixie; children, Roxanne, Jennifer (Trent) Eckman, Thatcher, Chancellor; two granddaughters, Kylie and Hadley; brothers, Jerry, Mickey, Danny; sister, Robin, and many Aunts, Uncles and cousins. He is preceded in death by his father Thomas R. Olson. Services will be held at the LDS meeting house at 3151 South 900 East in Salt Lake on August 15, 2011 at 11:00 a.m. with a viewing held from 9:00 -10:45 a.m. prior to the service. Interment at Lake Hills Cemetery, 10055 South State Street, Sandy, UT.

bring on the panic

So today I get informed that Tim will most likely come home much sooner than we expected. Which means I need to move much sooner than expected in order to be there before he gets home. Don't get me wrong I am super excited for him to be home, but I'm a little panicked now trying to figure out how to make this move happen on a shorter time frame. Money, packing, plane tickets, and other assorted stuff. All has to be done before I go! Tim just says it is a matter of me getting on the plane, leave it to a guy to think that way while the girl freaks out about all the extra details. 
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On another note I start my job tomorrow!!!! 

The Big Hit

Was talking to Tim today and it finally hit me "OMG I'm moving to New York".  Now while I knew all along I was going and nothing has changed, I love him and want to be with him. It did in fact become more real today. Not sure what exactly flipped the switch in my head though. Perhaps it is because we are almost xx days away instead of xxx days.

Getting Closer

I believe we are down to 107 days until Tim is home and I make the biggest move ever. I won't lie I am getting nervous to move clear across the country, but then again I'm super excited to change and start things over. It is exactly what I need.

Eat, Pray, Love

I'm watching the movie for the second time. Makes me wonder where would I go for each phase? Where would I go to Eat? Where would I go to Pray? And where would I go to Love? I do know that I need something, I need to find my balance before I take the next step in my life which will be wife. Oh and what would my word be? Watch the movie if you are confused!!!

Today will be in the History Books

So tonight I'm half asleep on the couch when my sister comes downstairs and says "they killed Osama". My initial reaction was the president was killed but then I realized what she said. I then after a moment jumped up in panic. I'm happy for all those who were hurt by 9/11 attacks that they have some justice. However when I fully realized what Shelly had said I panicked because Osama is dead and what is that going to do in Afghanistan where Tim is? I suspect some communication blackout for a little while and I do trust him he knows his job and does it well. I'm also fearful that attacks are going to spring up in random places through out the world. I'm sure they had plans in place for when this day came.  So my fears aside this is truly a day that will go down in history and people will remember where they were when Osama Bin Laden was killed and taken into U.S custody.

God Bless those who may be put in harms way by these actions!!!!

Royal Wedding!!!

I watched it live at 3am this  morning and I just watched the ceremony again lol.  I was 6 when Diana married Charles and have some memory of watching coverage that day with my mom (yes my memory is that good). So to see William marry Catherine it was a must for me. Did get a little teary eyed when William saw Cathrine for the first time and leaned over to tell her how beautiful she looked. And her dress was the die for.  Can't wait to have my own wedding!!!

It has been a while

Since I last posted to my blog. Nothing really planned this week before noon so I've been on Tim's schedule so we can talk as much as possible before we switch to opposite shifts again.  Easter was fun, first year we made Easter Chili instead of ham for dinner. Dyed eggs I wanted black ones but they just turned deep purple (still looked awesome though). Oh course we had an egg hunt which Otis kicked butt, he was all over the place filling his basket over and over again. I get to thinking that after the 4th of July this year all my holidays are going to be away from my family and be with my own little family. Weird to think that life as I know it right now will be completely different towards the end of the year.  Well that is what I'm up to and I'm hoping to be blogging a bit more in the future rather than long stretches between posts.

I hate saying goodbye

Had to say goodbye to my fiance today, well not really goodbye forever but the fact he is returning to a war zone this time the goodbye meant a little more. This is just one of the hurdles life has and Will throw at us and I am confident that we will work as a team to overcome it.

3 days and nothing

I'm hoping that I'm just overreacting to the situation!  It has been pretty damn close to 3 days with nothing in the form of communication. I would totally understand this if he were back over seas but being in the states on R&R it just sends up red flags for me.  I'm not saying I have to know every detail of every minute in the day, I'm not that kind of person. However I would like to have a general idea of what the hell is going on. I would love for this to be just me having a freak out because in the back of my head Trent's shenanigans are haunting me, however it being the third fucking day I'm guessing it is not.  Throw me a fucking bone will ya!!!!  So I don't think you are dead somewhere please, that is all I'm asking of you at the moment.

Not gonna lie...

I texted Tim this morning to say "good morning, I love you" and got this in return (something like it)  " busy today will text when I can". OK cool you are going to be busy but because I've been hurt by a jerk wad before who used to text me the exact same thing while he was out banging other girls I'm a little irritated. I know he isn't doing anything bad and that he has been helping his mom out while visiting her. I however can't help but wonder what the heck would you be doing from 10am to well now it is 8pm on the east coast that you can't say I love you back, good morning, or just a sliver of an idea what is going on. I'm not gonna lie it stings a little!!! And no I'm not one of those girls who has to have tabs on their guy 24/7, I trust him.

Dress

Yay!!!! my dress has been picked out and I can't wait to get it here so we can make adjustments if needed. I ordered it early because I picked it out online so we can have plenty of time to fix anything that doesn't fit right.  (trying on dresses sort of makes me uncomfortable) We also picked out the cake design and flavors, I'm lucky enough to have a sister who does cake decorating at a bakery.  I just can't wait for the big day to come!!!

Can't sleep

It's pretty close to 4am and I am wide awake! I started watching Army Wives which I should not have. I know it is just a tv show and it is really nothing like the real world, yet I can't help but cry along with the characters.  It also struck a nerve because I told Tim that I did not want him to come see me  during this R&R .  I felt that he needed to take care of things in New York to prepare for us to live together and well for my own selfish reasons I couldn't bare to spend time with him and then have to send him back to a war zone. I know I know he is in the army and yes I am fully aware of what I signed up for when I said yes, however I also am aware that he is getting out of the military so I shouldn't have to part from him in the future.  Sort of second guessing my train of thought!!! Even though he did need to take care of stuff at the house. 

What a day what a day...

I believe by the time I am in New York with my fiance and somewhat settled I'm going to have a major ulcer lol.  I'm stressing about the move and wedding big time.  Poor Tim just tells me to relax and stop stressing.  Tim is in New Jersey which makes our communication somewhat less than what we usually get when he is over seas (how does that work?) Right now I'm staying over at my parents, which is the only place right now that I can go to sort things out. My place is total chaos right now!!! I'm hoping tomorrow will be a relatively stress free day and I can properly make some plans.