Royal Wedding!!!

I watched it live at 3am this  morning and I just watched the ceremony again lol.  I was 6 when Diana married Charles and have some memory of watching coverage that day with my mom (yes my memory is that good). So to see William marry Catherine it was a must for me. Did get a little teary eyed when William saw Cathrine for the first time and leaned over to tell her how beautiful she looked. And her dress was the die for.  Can't wait to have my own wedding!!!

It has been a while

Since I last posted to my blog. Nothing really planned this week before noon so I've been on Tim's schedule so we can talk as much as possible before we switch to opposite shifts again.  Easter was fun, first year we made Easter Chili instead of ham for dinner. Dyed eggs I wanted black ones but they just turned deep purple (still looked awesome though). Oh course we had an egg hunt which Otis kicked butt, he was all over the place filling his basket over and over again. I get to thinking that after the 4th of July this year all my holidays are going to be away from my family and be with my own little family. Weird to think that life as I know it right now will be completely different towards the end of the year.  Well that is what I'm up to and I'm hoping to be blogging a bit more in the future rather than long stretches between posts.

I hate saying goodbye

Had to say goodbye to my fiance today, well not really goodbye forever but the fact he is returning to a war zone this time the goodbye meant a little more. This is just one of the hurdles life has and Will throw at us and I am confident that we will work as a team to overcome it.

3 days and nothing

I'm hoping that I'm just overreacting to the situation!  It has been pretty damn close to 3 days with nothing in the form of communication. I would totally understand this if he were back over seas but being in the states on R&R it just sends up red flags for me.  I'm not saying I have to know every detail of every minute in the day, I'm not that kind of person. However I would like to have a general idea of what the hell is going on. I would love for this to be just me having a freak out because in the back of my head Trent's shenanigans are haunting me, however it being the third fucking day I'm guessing it is not.  Throw me a fucking bone will ya!!!!  So I don't think you are dead somewhere please, that is all I'm asking of you at the moment.

Not gonna lie...

I texted Tim this morning to say "good morning, I love you" and got this in return (something like it)  " busy today will text when I can". OK cool you are going to be busy but because I've been hurt by a jerk wad before who used to text me the exact same thing while he was out banging other girls I'm a little irritated. I know he isn't doing anything bad and that he has been helping his mom out while visiting her. I however can't help but wonder what the heck would you be doing from 10am to well now it is 8pm on the east coast that you can't say I love you back, good morning, or just a sliver of an idea what is going on. I'm not gonna lie it stings a little!!! And no I'm not one of those girls who has to have tabs on their guy 24/7, I trust him.

Dress

Yay!!!! my dress has been picked out and I can't wait to get it here so we can make adjustments if needed. I ordered it early because I picked it out online so we can have plenty of time to fix anything that doesn't fit right.  (trying on dresses sort of makes me uncomfortable) We also picked out the cake design and flavors, I'm lucky enough to have a sister who does cake decorating at a bakery.  I just can't wait for the big day to come!!!

Can't sleep

It's pretty close to 4am and I am wide awake! I started watching Army Wives which I should not have. I know it is just a tv show and it is really nothing like the real world, yet I can't help but cry along with the characters.  It also struck a nerve because I told Tim that I did not want him to come see me  during this R&R .  I felt that he needed to take care of things in New York to prepare for us to live together and well for my own selfish reasons I couldn't bare to spend time with him and then have to send him back to a war zone. I know I know he is in the army and yes I am fully aware of what I signed up for when I said yes, however I also am aware that he is getting out of the military so I shouldn't have to part from him in the future.  Sort of second guessing my train of thought!!! Even though he did need to take care of stuff at the house. 

What a day what a day...

I believe by the time I am in New York with my fiance and somewhat settled I'm going to have a major ulcer lol.  I'm stressing about the move and wedding big time.  Poor Tim just tells me to relax and stop stressing.  Tim is in New Jersey which makes our communication somewhat less than what we usually get when he is over seas (how does that work?) Right now I'm staying over at my parents, which is the only place right now that I can go to sort things out. My place is total chaos right now!!! I'm hoping tomorrow will be a relatively stress free day and I can properly make some plans.